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How long had it been? The solitary person did not know. Weeks maybe, it felt that long, but with so many gaps in memories it could be that years had passed. Thinking caused the head to ache.

What am I?

The place was dark, but the eyes could see very clearly in no light. An assessment of the area showed she was dark skinned and naked. When she tried to find any identifying marks she was hampered by chains.

"Drow," she said aloud. Her voice was raspy, licking her lips revealed chapped skin. A bucket was nearby, she kicked it over, nothing spilled out.

Am I alone, or am I dehydrating?

The drowess couldn't even remember her name or why she was here, but she did know she hurt everywhere. The body felt sore and stiff and scabs on her wrists at least let her know she had been confined to this . . . cell? She didn't know what it was, there was no door.

She was thirsty. Food made her wretch in dry heaves, even breathing hurt. She was skinny, wounds, scabs and bruises plagued her skin. So many questions ran through her head but everything fled as soon as she had something coherent.

The drowess giggled, it hurt, but the pain just made her laugh harder, she didn't even know why she was laughing. It did not feel good to do it but she couldn't control herself. She threw back her head and screamed laughter till she started coughing. On the ceiling, she saw something that looked like a hatch. Swallowing the blood in her throat she scampered along the wall, but her restraints prevented her from climbing. She clawed at the chains, the wall, herself until she was tired, which wasn't long.

So all the marks on the wall and on her person, she made herself? Why couldn't she remember?

Who am I?

"Xull'rae," she heard herself say.

Was she alone, was she talking to herself or was someone there?

"Out. Let me out," she croaked.

Nothing happened and no one came.

You're fucked.

"Who are you?" Xull'rae looked around but it was only her, the bucket, and the chains.


"Don't leave me alone . . ."

More silence. It was weird her head was throbbing this badly yet managed to make no noise whatsoever.

"Please?" Xull'rae whimpered through a sob.

A whisper tickled the edge of the drowess' hearing. "I can't hear you."

Another whisper, the other voices joined in, some talking, some laughing, others screamed, while others sang. "No . . . stop . . . go away."

In a rush Xull'rae remembered everything, but her mind was merciless in the details that the drowess could not tell which screams were hers and which were in her head. She clawed at herself but nothing made them stop. She did the only thing she could think of, she rammed her head into the wall until they went silent. Eventually she would kill herself and it would be a mercy, if she were freed there was no telling what she'd do.

Before exhaustive sleep claimed her Xull'rae knew that she'd wake to do this all over again . . . it was better to be confined than letting anyone see how far into madness she had fallen.
For :iconlolth-scourge:'s Cress'd'wiles project.

OBJECTIVE 8: Solitary Confinement
There is little more frightening then being completely alone. Write what happens when one of your drow characters finds themselves completely cut off from society. For those who aren't too high in the society might not mind, but nobles won't have slaves and servants to wait on them hand and foot! How do they react?
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RaitheaRhuitaure Featured By Owner May 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I think it's very deep piece, shows well the loneliness and is wonderfully written.
XullraeZauviir Featured By Owner May 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. I try to be emotional with each piece I write. :hug:
DramiraSK Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2011
I love this. It REALLY explores the depth of solitary confinement, and it's so well written. Oh, just noticed you intentionally mentioned it as the objective- great job!!
I think you brought the element of her being drow rather than human forward in a good way as well.
XullraeZauviir Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
And I'm notoriously bad for letting my comments stock pile up! :blush: Thank you very much for taking the time to read and comment on my work. I do these objectives every year, but it seems they may not have any this year. :( I haven't seen any new objectives yet.

I like to explore things. I also like to think and have my readers think with me. :XD: Without contact we seem to be beasts who have gone rabid . . . drow live in one of the harshest environments and when you combine the environment with no contact, my conclusion is a psychotic break. It could happen to anyone but with drow who have no release for their anger than it stands to reason they will hurt themselves as the only recourse. ;)

That or I just like to use Xull'rae for my silly ideas. :evillaugh:
DramiraSK Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2011
You're welcome, Sweetheart!
You seem like SUCH a doll, no wonder the dA community adores you.
I'm all about exploring different things, too. It's a fun way to really open up your character to the world, to new kinds of writing and to your own thoughts. Especially with characters of other races- they need special care!

Hehe, I constantly use my Dramira for everything. Author favoritism is no stranger to me. ;)

DramiraSK Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2011
P.S. oh wow I forgot to favorite this! Oops!
LeilansDream Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2011
:O ....... :omg: :bucktooth: ...... :hug:
XullraeZauviir Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
:nod: :faint:
CrypticStar Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
it is a good piece. Makes you really think. :hug:
XullraeZauviir Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. :cuddle: Yes it does, it makes you wonder what you'd do if that situation ever happened to you. :nod:
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